I mean really? What in the actual fuck.
Yup. I definitely gave you too much credit.
How low can you get? To run to my friends and to my family? Fuck. You have your own. Are you honestly trying to leave me without any people on my side of the court? You may say that you’re not trying to get anyone to side with you. But that’s what’s happening.
I hate how you keep approaching MY friends and MY family. Damn it. You have your own set. Run to them. Stop plaguing the minds of people who I’m supposed to be able to run to.
It’s never been platonic.
I honestly don’t know what to think anymore.
I feel like I’ve given you too much credit.
I thought you had the decency to know that what you’ve been doing is just plain wrong. But you do not.
I thought you had the decency and respect for me at least to not bash me online. But you don’t have either.
I have a lot to say about you. But I only tell my friends privately because I know what effect it’ll have on people if I bash you on my Twitter like you are doing to me. There are people who need not to be involved in this and I respect you enough not to say something about you that they do not need to know.
You say that you don’t know me anymore. Honestly, I don’t know you anymore either. You were never this person who needed to be heard by random people. You were never this person who attacked people online. It’s like you’ve lost all respect for me that you don’t even care that you’re basically ruining my image to people who have nothing to do with this. I mean, okay go ahead ruin my image to your friends all you want. But to people who have absolutely nothing to do with this? But to people who barely even considers you a friend?
I don’t even know what to say to you. I don’t even know what to think of you.
I know this entry probably makes no sense. My thoughts are in pieces too and I can’t seem to make sense of it.
But then again, I can no longer make sense of you either. So maybe this senseless post does make sense.
If this is going to happen, I have to learn to keep my mouth shut.
Or at least know who I can truly trust with what I wanna say.
You’ve become so bad that I’ve actually thought about getting back together with him ONLY to keep you quiet and stop thinking I’m such a bad person. Yes, I was THAT willing to be unhappy just so that you’d leave me alone.
You’ve actually made me regret ever meeting him in the first place.
You’re the only person who’s hurting me. Stop it.
None of my friends are a bad influence. You don’t know them. Stop making hunches and convincing yourself of lies just to reconcile who you think I’m becoming and why.
Times like these I wish I had a different family.